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Crystal Death
Review by Gary M. Kramer, Gay City News, March 1, 2007
"Rock Bottom" is a stunning and important documentary
about the impact of crystal meth addiction on a handful of gay men
in New York City. Filmmaker Jay Corcoran spent two years - from
March 2004 to February 2006 - chronicling the lives of crystal meth
users and, in many cases, their recovery. The stories he presents
range from poignant to shocking, as various men reveal how the insidious
drug took control of their minds and bodies in ways they never expected.
In a telephone interview, Corcoran, a New Yorker, claimed that
he never used crystal meth himself, but he was motivated to make
"Rock Bottom" because, "After everything we [as gay
men] went through with AIDS in the '80s and '90s... why are certain
gay men suddenly self-destructing? I wanted to make an explicitly
gay male film that could look at the sexuality in a way most gay
films shy away from. This is not prurient - it gets at the issues
behind gay male sex and addresses them in a very sober way. I really
wanted to do something this wrenching and truthful, living in America
where the media shies away from everything raw and honest."
The filmmaker says has been "traumatized" by the effect
the drug was having on the gay community. What is more, crystal
meth has spiked HIV rates, and while the film does not provide statistics
- "because there are so few, and they are constantly changing,"
Corcoran explained - the linkages have been clearly documented.
Because the drug creates such a euphoric high, and stimulates the
sex drive, barebacking is much more common among users.
For Corcoran, the most important scene in "Rock Bottom"
depicts one of these marathon sexual encounters. CJ, one user, is
in bed with Gio while the cameras film them. But despite 13 hours
naked together, neither man had achieved an orgasm in part because
of the effects of the drug. The filmmaker's response to this was
mixed. He was pleased to get the footage for the film, yet despite
the fact that he has no interest in glamorizing crystal use, Corcoran
came away depressed by the prosaic picture the scene paints.
"I was thinking it would be amazing sex, but it was the antithesis
of that," he said. "How pathetic and unsexy. Watching
these guys and talking with them for an hour... this was as far
as I wanted to go. It hit me - this is a sad scene - people think
they are connecting and they are not."
CJ offers other, horrifying revelations in the film - about wanting
to infect others, and a story about ignoring a case of gonorrhea,
which made Corcoran flinch.
But these proved critical moments in the film.
"I appreciated CJ's honesty," the documentarian said.
"In the gay community, we censor ourselves. We have to start
being responsible, by telling the truth, and it's not pretty. We've
got to wake up."
Such painful truths are repeated throughout "Rock Bottom."
Another subject, J., fuels his singing and porn career with the
occasional use of crystal meth. J. is on a slippery slope, both
with his boyfriend and his life, as viewers see how easily he became
addicted to the drug.
"J. [has been] put on a pedestal, and he takes that as validation.
It's so sad." Corcoran observed. "He's going to fall through
the cracks if he doesn't get his shit together."
In contrast, Raymond, who has been HIV-positive for 20 years,
is one of the film's success stories, a man who by the end of the
documentary has been clean for several months. Corcoran praised
Raymond for "being sober and doing great. It's pretty remarkable.
Raymond trying to get sober and relapsing is very tender."
It was difficult for the filmmaker to watch his subjects suffering,
but he needed to do that work in order to give audiences a true
sense of how the drug affects people. As much as he wanted to step
in and save these men, he had to wait for them to be ready to quit
crystal meth.
"I was angry that so many of us are suffering so much."
Corcoran admitted.
"The sad thing was that each guy had such a poor self-image.
A lot of it was about being gay. For each one, it's the narcissism,
and validation. The drug helps us forget that we're old or HIV-positive
and everyone thinks they are cocks of the walk and having the best
sex/time of their lives."
And while there is this need for validation, Corcoran also recognizes
that the cry for attention is also a cry for help.
"Rock Bottom" is inspiring not only because it shows
the perils of crystal meth, but it also allows the brave storytellers
a chance to express themselves and find a way of coping with their
own addiction.
"They wanted help, to stop," Corcoran concluded. "Having
me come ask them how they are doing and what they are doing, it
got them to think about why they are doing this, and helped them
in their process, to come to terms with why they do what they do,
and to see their own growth."
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